I talk a lot about transformation. Most of my teaching is just about that -- transformation.
Some people get turned off by the concept. "Why turn into something or somebody else? I don’t want to stop being me.”
If this is how one understands the word “transformation,” then, yeah, I don’t want to transform either.
This transformation that I’m talking about it not about becoming someone else, nor is it about becoming a better version of you. This transformation is about become more of what we already are. More precisely, it’s about becoming what we really are.
By understanding and accepting that we, our whole beings that are mini cosmoses, mini universes, permeated by the same divine force that permeates the macrocosm, we can begin to feel the dissonance or friction between this grand notion of our who we are and the identities that we’ve constructed for ourselves.
This identity of ours, who we think we are, how we describe ourselves, our likes and dislikes, our weaknesses and strengths, are constructions of our small selves. By small self, I mean the person who can say, my name is… I was born on…..My parents’s names are…. That person is our small self.
For many of us, this is the only self that we consider, the only one that we think exists. But, this small self, or constructed identity, does not represent the grandeur of the divine mind. WE are emanations of the divine mind.
This is not to say that we must decimate this identity. Not at all. Don’t do that! To function in the modern world, we need identity. I know too many spiritually ambitious people who head down the path of completely eliminating the ego and identity. I don’t recommend it.
Our task then, is to see this identity for what it is.
Can we at the same time fully express ourselves in all our divine nature AND live and function and prosper disguised in a humanly flawed identity? Yes. Absolutely. This is full incarnation. BEING one’s divinity and fully accepting incarnation in a human physical body in the world as it is, this is the goal.
I've observed that when one embarks on a spiritual path, there is often a desire to reject the system, reject society and the world as it is, as it seems to be today. This rejection, however, pushes us away from growing, becoming bigger than we are and what we seem to have always been. Instead, refusal or rejection of the way things are today only pushes to into a corner. In this corner, we become weaker, angrier, judgmental and frustrated. This is not our goal and this is not transformation.
When we create distance between our human-made identities and our divine selves, at least in point of view, we reach a point where we are capable of playing with life. We can absolutely live out our human foibles, but without being submerged by our own ridiculousness. We can choose how we want to interact with life and with others. We accept that people are crazy insane, just like we ourselves are crazy insane! We see that we are all here, having a wild experience and most of us don’t know what the hell we’re doing.
The first step is to make the choice to experiment, to observe, to test, knowing that we are actually Alice in Wonderland. Like, questioning with our whole being, What is this trip?! What is this life, this world, this thing that we're doing here??!
It’s from this point of view that we can feel and experience our divinity, our grander and greater selves. The more we interact with life from this point of view—the what is this trip? point of view--the more we feel the presence and power of our divine selves. In other words, we explore this life with eyes wide open in marvel, awe and wonder, even when life gets tough. Don’t confuse this idea with seeing the positive in life. It’s more of a Holy shit, can you believe this?! kind of attitude, whether or not that which we are observing makes us feel good or bad. In either case, we experience life as it is without drowning in it and we add a little awe to the mix.
It’s from this point of view that we live more of this (divinity) and less of that (unconscious identity), all the while living fully in the world as it is.